Not as easy as it looks

Yesterday I bought the book, " 1,000 Palce To See Before You Die." It has given me ideas on things obviously on wha I wanna see in the USA. All morning I've been planning a trip to Maine. And it's exciting but at the same time,I have no one to experince this with. I broke up with my boyfiend yesterday. After 7 and a half years we both realized that our path of lives are in different direction. I'm okay with this outcome, it was much over-due. But unfortunalty we still live together because I have no other option but to stay here in our apartment until the lease is up. And that reason only I'm so angry because I want to mourn. I want to mourn the fact that I had to let someone go in my life. But I can't because he is in this apartment with me and with no real place to go in this town we are at, I'm stuck holding this grief and angry inside. AlllI wanted to do was see the world and enjoy it with someone and instead my someone wants to see their own world with other people.